knowledge sharing?

:(

i had waited FOREVER...
and its already OVER!
:(

stretch the arm...
no finger tip comes to help,
call out loud...
no head turns,
the universe is expanding,
everything and everyone is moving away.
imagination does not help anymore..
distances just keeping growing longer!

its a beautiful day...

while you were sleeping...

while you were sleeping...
there was information overload
ideas hoard...
there was brainstorming,
corporate mourning...
there was customer feedback,
and motivation lack.
utilization negative...
do you really want to give?
while you were sleeping...
the day's past, its night...
armour up soldier...
its time to fight

the most frustration, annoying, irritating... grrrrrr place to ever EVER EVER develop an itch is your heel!!!!!

how do you know that the way you doing is right?
how do you know when to give up during a fight?

In reality, there is , perhaps, no one of our natural passions so hard to subdue as Pride. Disguise it, struggle with it, beat it, stifle it, mortify it as much as one pleases, it is still alive and will every now and then peep out and show itself; you will see, perhaps, often in this history; for , even if I could conceive that I had completely overcome it, I should probably be proud of my humility.
-Benjamin Franklin

little more...

so much to do so little time.
if just a few more hours in this day of mine...
Might be enough.
fitting it all might not seem so tough.
maybe then i'll be a little more at ease...
or maybe then more will come,
maybe the desire for more will never really cease

RAINS....

not something the city of bangalore can handle...
sigh!

Identities...

was reading this article sometime last week, about a man, "Mr Thambi" a tamilian settled in one of the islands of trinidad, and thought i HAD TO mention this part of it:
"In Trinidad, Thambi Ramaswamy's grandson-in-law Ramish is a non-practising Chirstian. Ramish's sister Shakila is a practising Muslim, while his hindu daughter is married to a Muslim. However for them these distinctions do not matter; because they are all Indians."
:)

two more...

tshirts i painted
for prashant :)

in disguise...

slight drizzle in the morning...
sat in the bus and scanned the scene outside.
the overcast made it look like you were looking at everything through tinted glass.
the crowd in the street, the people the vehicles all moved through the damp surroundings trying not to let it affect their daily chores.then looked towards the sky... plain gray empty.. a complete contrast to the scene below...scanned it to check for something different from the thick gray layer of clouds...saw the sun...behind the clouds, almost looked like the moon.

missed again! :(

forgetful?
generally not...
happened for the third time!
feel more miserable than ever.
reason?
cant pick out one.
not that it was not important.
not that it meant nothing.

feeling worse than ever...
will they forgive?
i think never.

unconference

i know i'm a little late in posting this but wth, better late than never
barcamp bangalore:
i attend my first barcamp this july.
was quite taken by surprise, SO many people, so many diverse topics.
quite amazed by how good people are at what they are and how little i know even about the things i thought i knew.
was really cool how people came forward and spoke on and how much knowledge can be exchanged in so little time. though primarily it was to do with technology,collectives about photography and startups were also really really interesting(spent most of my time there)
the place to be for networking.wish i were feeling better than what i was on the second day to be able to stay there longer.

why?

its really sad when someone is not allowed to carry on with something they really really are passionate about.
worst is when the reason is something related to self that prevents you from carrying on...
have friends...
- a runner... has run many half marathons and a couple full ones. running gives him joy...unparalleled by any activity i can remember. injures back... advised by doctors not to run a couple of months.
was almost like asking him not to breath!
- a football player... not seen someone as passionate about a game as this guy. the game can take him in and out of depression.seems like anything or anyone he loves with his heart and soul even could not be anything more than a second love. knee injury... doctors say dont play... like taking a life away..
- a dancer... better than any other. dont need to elaborate the magic in dance and music do i? accident... no dancing anymore!

wonder what really goes into the making of God's master plan.
how strong really is the man?

greens...

have always noticed the different shades of green on the trees and plants.

Had once attended a talk in school when we were in the 10th std. it being our board exam year, the talk was about how we should keep a schedule and study regularly.dont rememeber most of the tips and tricks that were told to us, but for this one which is still fresh.
the lady giving the talk said, in the morning when you wake up to study, and are struggling to keep your eyes open, go out into your balcony and stare into the trees/plants:The green color has a quality that makes you feel fresh and energetic.
dont know how true it was and how much it actually works.
but i know that its the greens,the foliage, the views from hill tops showing vast forests that give me this strange feeling which definately fits into the 'fresh/energetic/positive' category. :)

ray...

brighter than sunshine...
come light up my day,
warm as home,
just that single ray...
do i just lay in your path?
or was i your destination right from the start?
with the darkness away all seems clear...
it all being a dream, an illusion is what i fear.

Addiction.....

how helpless??

everytime i go a wee bit away from my normal routes without my own means of transport,
the city makes me feel like i'm handicapped without it!

entangled..

all messed up...
nothing seemed right.
to win one,
lost every other fight.
all for one!
from what are we to run?
can take what happened last?
can really keep the fast?

back to board games :)

cool coffee shop that lets you play!
that is "blokus" there !
me wins with the read and blue....
i did loose the game before this,
but wth, end in a win!
sure was a struggle with mouleesha boy,he keeps thinking you're distracting him if you start to talk!
phew!
good fun none the less.
what say "Mr. Dileep 'i play defensive' Mouleesha"
;)
:p

till a while back i thought the vocab and language you speak could be influenced by the way people around you talk...
now i know a book can do it too :)

2 day weekend????

-after ages at mac donald's! COKE FLOAT it is!
-home made food... roommate's folks over.
-paint ball...pheW! Ouch!
-Zorbing... whoa!
-bungee jumping... whoooaaaaaaaa!!!!!
-sun burnt!...tough as it maybe to believe i CAN get redder! :p
-seeing off closest friend at work... :( :(
-11 hours sleep... after ages!!!!!!!!
-planetariam! THE place to be!
-five hours with a five year old...did not even realise how they went.
-dinner buffet at chancery...more than 10 choices for dessert!! what else can one ask for?
-miles of driving! WAH!


monday morning now..
sigh!
back to work....

all the time

The silence of a falling star
Lights up a purple sky
And as I wonder where you are
I'm so lonesome I could cry...



(unoriginal)

have been waiting for long,
forever unsure...
ignoring all,
for that one untainted and pure...
always seemed round the corner,
never came along..
should i wait a little longer?
move in the direction my feet were caught?
or stick around for my reflection to talk?

i'd rather take the trouble than bear the guilt...

sigh!

last evening got first dose of mango this season...
a fruit like non other.
courtesy, beautiful charming lady with two adorable kids in a warm house.

quietened by the enthusiam.
starved after the dessert.

the decisions you make, determine the person you are.

:p

hungry......
reading stored procedure..
tastes inner joins and where conditions..
yum!!

repeat the mistake,
give up the faith,
reinvent the belief...
who's looking for relief?
detour through the dreams,
redefine the superstition,
revise the repetition...
so when do we start the mission?

all the time??

i miss MOMMY!!!!!!!!!!!

nightmares to be

i'm going to start getting nightmares about these now.

i JUST CANT get past that big red hold. ya ya its cool that i've atleast managed to reach that hold.but i just freeze there!!! tried both the approaches to get past but i just cant move once i'm there. Grrrr!!!!
so much for the wall climbing.
i'm to heavy to pull myself up!!!
someday... (hopefully soon)

the requirements gathering has gone on for ever now. all the delay when we try think of the reason, seems ok the way things are for all the stakeholders but damn does it not fizzle out all the enthu??(was there enough enthu in the first place :|)

not been to the cinema for a movie in the past month and a half! love the movies....damn wht am i doing?????

random thoughts

-jungle calling.
-cant you control.
-cant you let go?
-sleep?
-new shoes :)
-absolute vodka
-inhale the exhaust
-airbus
-leech bites
-how far is diwali!
-company:so much for eating.
-prettiest people are most lonely
-you want me to prove it to you again?
-transfered revenue
-half hour talk to dissolve 2 months of clogged thoughts.
-impossible is nothing

while commuting....

no rain, no pain...

one life, do more.....

(unoriginal)

???

can feel a hollow,
you just make a sound,
and she'll follow.
gives in to not see you frown,
to get anointed with the princess crown.
get followed by the shadow,
as the path gets so narrow.
its catching up on her heal,
tough to narrate how she feels.
with every passing moment,
is it the right way it should've been spent?

response

somebody help!
she's in pain,
so what if you cant hear her complain?
cant you see it in those eyes?
that they were not too wise,
followed a stranger's stare,
thinking it was genuine care.
now as they look up in despair,
please ignore the clothes and the hair.

when was the last time i was moved?
or not paying attention to myself brood?
honestly speaking i hear the cry loud,
be it me alone or in the middle of the crowd.
then in the night get home and think,
how can i let myself sleep even a wink?

its the larger thing you target,
there is a root to everything dont you forget.
no cry forgotten,
none in the back of the mind rotten!
sooner or later it'll materialise,
and then will come the things that are larger than life

remember

-always cut toe nails before trekking.
-climb down is not always simpler than climbing up.
-u ain't there untill u are there...
-there is only one way to find out if u can do it...
-its all in the mind!
-you dont know what you are missing unless you've seen it.
-false summits make reaching the summit the most satisfying feeling.
-self is the toughest one to convince, if i can take the fact that i've given up, its not me!
-you dont the magic of the smaller half steps.
-WATER: the best thing on the planet!




learnt, post waynad trek :)
31st march - 1st april 2007

lost?

walked straight into the high,
yes no alcohol the day was dry!
when logic and reason seem to die,
cant dare to shut the eye!
there never seems enough time,
to stop and say its not mine.
caught the rainbow in a drop,
imagined the run,skip and hop.
finally there's music for the soul,
the desert rose in full bloom stands there all alone!

waiting in a lie..
waiting for hope to die.
and when its gone,
maybe i'll still wonder what when wrong.
with every push moves closer to the edge of the rack,
once off the limit, sorry never coming back.

happy birthday!

prashant and anu went up the hill,

reached the top?

hah! they never will!

pail of water?

they'd rather have a quarter!

who fell down?

and where's the crown!?

twist in the tale! ;)

cut the cake,

its party time forever after!!!!!

:p:p

to the first guy i've know,

with whom i've played and grown...

to the softest heart,

which melts even before my tears start...

to the brightest eyes,

which have hidden my countless lies...

to the bestest brother,

i'd give up the world for none other...

cheers!

happy birthday!

have been doing lots of things off late.
have'nt had a free weekend since the new year!have something lined up almost all the time, not that i mind it...
maybe thats the way i like it,
maybe i make it a point that it is like that.
sitting idle is somthing i can't take, i think so ;).

energy!
running out of it i think.....
dont seem to have enough sleep!
so dead by the end of the day.
with all the fun stuff that is being done.... there are chores that are to be done too....

long for warmth in this heat,
for food after a meal..
for sleep after waking up...
well!
homesick! :(

HOLI HAI!!!!!!!!!!!

colors!

in celebration,

of the not known,

day of birth,

a day late

the routine,
the regularity,
the faith,
and the belief.
wish for disciplined existence.
maybe not strong enough,
maybe just right to make us tough.

if only i could dream things into life.!

?

do u sink in,
or spiral down?
bring it on...
lets try and recall.
the effects of the high
on this porcelain doll

random thoughts:up there all at once

• the ocean trapped in the seashell.
• to the moon and back.
• breakfast alone.
• ireland.
• Dam:hazelnut eyes
• i dont understand!!!!!!
• where's the mirage?
• dont you believe in subtlety?
• what made you think life was simple?
• samjhauta express...
• and what made you think your life was tuff?
• iron maiden.
• lost again or are you winning all the time?

weekend movies..... and the lines lingered

rocky balboa:
-fighters fight!

-life's not all sunshine and rainbows..

-It ain't about how hard you hit, it is about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward, how much can you take and keep moving forward.

omkara:
(dont remember exactly but somthing like this)
-tumhare naam ki bindi lagaye a jaate hain hum nange haath, par aagni se bhi paar ho jaaye toh bhi dagi hi rehete hain, sagi kabhi nahi ban paate.

expressed the desire,
narrated the request,
silence in expectation,
then came the glare,
the complain,
and finally the threat!
but nothing worked!
no reaction...
talking to God!
who are you to expect?

||

like twin mirrors placed face to face,
their reflections doubling back,
they had seen themselves in earnest for the first time,
and a thousand strong.

twisted the song just a little tini mini bit ;)

hey mr tambourine man
last song for me!
i am sleepy,
and there are place i've to go....
:P
but still...
mr tambourine man!
last song for me..
in the jingle, jangle morning
i come following you........

read?

i just finished yet another book and started a new one.(ha that makes me sound like quite a reader which i'm not... but yes even though i dont read too much its something i'd do instead of nothing)
the subjects i read are varied...anything light works.
as i put down the last book i wondered how what i read influences me? its either a whole new world, somthing i've never come across,was never exposed to.. or its another dimension to the line of thought i had about something.depending on the skill of the writer my point of views get influenced by varying degrees.well is'nt that the objective they had in mind when they started printing? to influence the point of view? to tell people what they not aware of?
on after thoughts...
do WELL WRITTEN books expand your thinking? or do they block it?

caution!

LASCIATE OGNE SPERANZA, VOI CH'INTRATE


Well not really
:)

good morning

the bus rocks,
the buttermilk sky soothes,
the passing trees and buildings build the monotony.

time to sleep :)

the chronic smile

moving....
have to keep moving,
to keep my feet from falling asleep!

cheers!

to the spirit of the republic!

;)

mint flavoured cough drops,
chocolate falvoured milk,
funny shaped cereal,
strawberry flavoured cough syrup,
cherry flavoured laxative ( ;) pennyroyal tea -nirvana),
sugar coated pills!
so much to make that bitter moment sweet!
sure you could smile :)

beautiful day

the dark does not seem dark enough,
the brightness is just right.
when its not about proving that you tough,
and troubles seem to give up without a fight.
the smile comes on instinctively,
the head feels lighter.

am i getting in terms with things happening lately?
or was last night's moon unusually lovely ?
or was the morning sky much less gray?
or is it the smile you gave me yesterday?
well not sitting down to analyse,
its just a beautiful day :)

..

someone coming here would wonder how angry a person am i.
:)
maybe this is my 'count one to ten' when u upset or maybe not.
turn and walk away with a smile.
maybe it'd never spill out,never is meant to. never thought it to be worth the effort.
but it does not belong inside.
the splash not visible to anyone but the chosen few.
the rest may just feel it as ripples if they ever do ;)

:(

got wind

like a wisper through the crack,
so faint from the corner in the back.
if we'd missed it we'd never know,
there nothing here we'd say,lets just go.

but we caught it,
no it was not gone,
that faint wisper caught to stir up the storm.
its moved everything,
from peripheral, to those deep within.
all is changing,and forever will.
know it now,its nothing ill.

physics ?

energy cannot be destroyed,
it just changes from one form to another.

every action has an equal and opposite reaction.

are these physics lessons i ought to have have not forgotten?
or rather remembered more often?

sorry

so do you feel the weight?

let you down..

disappointed you again?

cant tell you to not expect..

you have the right to!

but dont you ever get tired?

why dont you ever give up!?

new year!

the footwear i was wearing made my feet hurt!
sat down on the window sill,
the crowd and noise made me instinctively turn my head away,drew the curtains little and glanced outside.
contrast?
similar?
inside people partied hard celebrating the new year and out were people selling cigarettes and driving rickshaws

in:was dark it was the dance floor
out:it was dark, the night with only the street lights.

in:people who paid 8000 to be in there just for new year's eve
out: people who'd not earn this much even in 2 months

in:people dressed in their best, maybe one of the several tens or hundreds.
out:people who thought they were lucky to have clothes on

in:who'd say no to the waiters with trays full of food cause they'd had enuf.
out: who'd never had food enough.

in:who had no limit on their drinks a lot of choice to add to it.
out: who probably have to fight even for their day's share of water.

in: who were away from family cause its time to party with friends
out: who were away from family cause its time to earn.

happy new year to all